I am so sorry for it all. For the hardness of it all. Trying things hoping they will work out only for them not to. And for the shaming. That's what breaks my heart for you the most. That in your doing your very best, others still find a way to belittle them. I am sorry. I am also glad to hear that you are continuing to do the hard things because as you've said, hoplessness is not an option. And I am praying that sooner rather than later, you will get to live life pain free or with very minimal pain. Hugs